So right now I am currently experiencing EVERYTHING I normally get when I am on my period, but I don’t have the period.
Yeah I am thankful it’s summer, however man it’s frustrating. It straight away makes me thing “your endo is back” as there is no period to explain all my symptoms.
I can’t explain to my boyfriend (who is understanding and gets it so I don’t need to explain anything but still) that I can’t have sex because ‘I have my period without having my period’.
I live life on edge the entire time that my period might come at any point. At work, ay the supermarket, at the gym, while I’m at for coffee I stress about every possible situation!
People will never understand the stress we feel, I literally am in anticipation every time freaking out that my endo is back and I’m in for a wild ride every time I do not get my period. It is honestly the scariest thing I experience.
I do need to add I do have a mirena and you do skip periods on the mirena, it’s the whole point in having one!
But when I go from having a period for the past three, four months (whilst on the mirena) to all of a sudden not having one-I freak out!
The joys of being a girl. The joys of being an endo warrior. I will continue on like I am tonight.
Semi high on tramadol and with a wheat bag strapped to my lower belly, I am currently cooking a healthy clean butter chicken with cauliflower rice, even though I would maccas or Chinese or something -cravings lol – I know that the processed food and sugars will make this pain a millllion times worse!
I have been to work and the gym already. I have done some of the house work and the grocery shopping. I was in extreme pain the entire time for the above tasks, however I am a boss and this does not define me nor control my day any longer.
We are strong ladies!!!
Love and Light